j's groove: September 2005

i wish.....

i was here.....

sunday blues

i trekked to the mall today. i've been losing so much weight so i went shopping for jeans and khakis. i'm now down to 118 lbs from my curvy 134 lbs frame a month ago... from size 8 to size 4.

shopping for jeans is time consuming so i ready myself to give each a try. i was desperate to find some and it would be a bummer if i went home empty handed.

i have to calm myself down when i saw the tag...$130... is that the price or a size?

i hear Gap has a new line of jeans that are customized to fit various body shapes but i didn't bother to check since i can easily get the size i want.

i found a few pairs from Lucky and hit the road as fast as i can.

mind games

lost love is still love. it just takes a different form.. you can't hold their hand...you can't touch their hair...but when those senses weaken another one comes to life...M E M O R Y...memory becomes your partner... you hold it...you dance with it.... our lives has to end...love doesn't.

it's about every person we meet we learn about ourselves. the mistakes we made and the chance to make things right.

this was from the book i read and still playing on my mind.

naghihintay

Don’t care so much for me, I may get used to it.

Don’t come so near to me, I may not be able to detach from it.

Don’t put so much faith in me, I may not be able to handle it.

Don’t touch me the way you do, I may not be able to get over it.

Don’t become a part of my life, coz without you, I won’t be able to live it.

Don’t make me fall for you, I may not be able to fall out of it.

Don’t come into my life, If you have to leave one day.

Don't give me the hope, that it's forever you are gonna stay.

Coz love is an emotion....I won’t be able to hide.

When love isn’t reciprocated with love, It hurts deep down inside.

Don’t start something, that you won’t be able to end.

Don’t make me believe...

coz at the end of it all, I don’t wanna hear you say,

That,” I’m sorry”

rock me amadeus

it's been twenty years.....UB BOND FRIENDSHIP FOREVER

bunso

this is the only baby picture i have.

precious pic left so why not blog it......for the world to see.

blog me

Ok fine, I’m a back-dater.
I tend to miss a few weeks of blogging, then come back to fill in the blanks. My way of messing with the world.

sevenwonderfulyears

For the past days - weeks - months were the lowest point of my life.

I was a total mess.

Love brought me everywhere - from L.A. to Manila to L.A. to New York then back home.

I tried fixing whatever needed to be fixed but I couldn’t.

I gave sooo much love…spent sooo much money and invested sooo much time.

I already cried a river… heard enough… seen enough… got hurt enough…

Too bad that I have to subject my self to all these pain to understand and realize what was really going on. I just have to learn it the hard way.

I have no regrets with what I did. I fought each day for us. I did everything I could. God knows I can only do so much.

How far can someone go in loving a person this much?

I wonder if she will love you the same way I did.

I have to admit I struggle each day of my existence without you.

I felt more alone than ever in my life. I felt abandoned and lost.

It takes a lot of courage and strength to go on. Moving on is another thing to tackle.

Pain is a permanent fixture in my life right now.

Nevertheless…love is still a wonderful thing. I have no bitterness in love.

R E N T

if someone asked me what the show all about...it is about the lives of aspiring artists living in NYC.

songs are deep and each lyrics are passionate. Show was too long. RENT is about young people struggling to live from their everyday lives - it's about friendship...love (all forms)...aids...rent...and a little more. There is NO DAY BUT TODAY to see the show.

yaaaaawn....