emotional hangover II

Sometimes depression leaks into my everyday life, which for the most part is not very depressed. But what if what leaks it doesn't leave? I don't like teetering in and out of depression. It's simple, there is a cure to my depression though I doubt it well ever happen. Do you ever wish you could not think about anything...just be. Just be there and go on but not care, or think. It's not like people would treat you any differently, it's just you wouldn't care, at all. I'm scared that I'm gonnna fuck something up with her because I can't get things right in my own head.